Washing my Hair With Nettles
Washing my hair with nettles, a collection of
poems by Emilia Ivancu, newly transported from Romania by Diarmuid Johnson's voice,
grants us entry into a delicious new world of mystery and wonder. Her poetry
might be rooted in cultures of myth and symbolism but reading poem after poem,
I have been struck by the brutal and searing realism of her lines, returning over
and over to the darkness fluttering at the edge of human consciousness. But
Ivancu's poems also illuminate our path, giving us clues about how we might
harness these dark forces to reveal the possibilities they conceal.
A fortnight in the South of France at the end
of July brought a rare luxury of dipping in and out of the collection, allowing
Ivancu's imagery to slowly percolate my consciousness - only possible when a
certain extreme of 'doing nothing' or a state of 'being mode' has been
achieved. After all, holidays are our modern micro-versions of where we
practice a speeded up natural cycle of growth, decay and rebirth to emerge
renewed and refreshed. To paint the scene- I read the title poem 'washing my
hair with nettles' pool-side, sheltered by grape vines jostling and twirling
around the beams of a crumbling outhouse and accompanied by a soundtrack of
cicadas and starlings dancing across the blue sky above. I was struck by how
much these poems in the collection spoke to me during this holiday, a break
which comes at the end of a tough year where I have been forced to mine new
strengths and go right to the depths of what it means to be 'me'.
It is in this mental and physical space that I
listen to Ivancu talking of 'dreams born of nettles' of the sting and pain we
must undergo to achieve the prize of silken water that allows us to achieve our
authentic dreams. I think what she is saying is that we must undergo the pain,
the sting and burn of life before we can see the possibilities and beauty it
holds. The theme continues in 'Each Step Reveals a Sign' - 'you shall learn to read them; only when you have been taught; to shut
your eyes; so that night may illuminate your path'. Ivancu suggests it is
by using darkness, not light, we will be guided through life and able to see
more our way more clearly. Next 'In Every Garden' 'In every garden there ever was in Eden a serpent still remains; Just
as between the pages of each book there lurks a demon; And the demon strikes us
poised to strike.' Suggesting that we can't avoid the darkness of life but
that we can and should harness it to grow stronger and more resilient. The Two
Questions 'How much a man can lose in the
space of a single day; What can man recover in the space of a day' as well
as the 'Man is a Boat', 'The Air is All I Have', 'Carrying the Sky on our
Shoulders' all time and time again remind of us of the heavy weight and
delicate fragility that simultaneously dog the human existence.
Submerging myself in this collection was the
perfect companion to my meditations on renewal during my two-week break.
Ivancu's words and phrases provided respite but also new ways of thinking about
my own struggles to bend, twist and adapt to a reality so often governed by the
rules of others. The collection is a door-way to unfamiliar traditions of
mystery and wonder but the parallels of Ivancu's poems to our common existence
and solitary internal battles are an exquisite reminder that our own personal
struggles can and do mirror the universal experience. As she reminds us 'The
Air Is all I have' - all we all have. No matter who we are or what world we
have constructed for ourselves, the existence of each of us depends on that
simple inhale/exhale of breath. It seems to me that once we really start to
grasp that, everything else falls away and we can start to learn how to really
live.